Meghan Markle, the Duchess of Sussex, revealed in a new bombshell interview that she’d had suicidal thoughts after marrying Prince Harry and that the royal family did not give her access to mental health resources after she reached out.
Markle told Oprah Winfrey in an interview that aired Sunday night on CBS that she “just didn’t see a solution” to the intense scrutiny she faced after becoming a senior member of the royal family.
“You were having suicidal thoughts?” Oprah asked during the two-hour interview.
“Yes. It was very clear and very scary,” Meghan said in heartbreaking admission. “I just didn’t see a solution.”
“Look, I was really ashamed to have to say it at the time and ashamed to have to admit it to Harry especially, because I know how much loss he’s suffered,” Meghan said. “But I knew that if I didn’t say that I would do it … and I just didn’t ― I just didn’t want to be alive anymore. And that was a very clear and real and frightening constant thought.”
“I remember how [Harry] just cradled me. I went to the institution. And I said that I needed to go somewhere to get help. And I said that I’d never felt this way before. I need to go somewhere. And I was told that I couldn’t, because it wouldn’t be good for the institution.”
Meghan clarified that when she said “the institution,” she was referring to several people and that, when she was feeling suicidal, she went to one of the most senior people for help.
“I share this because there’s so many people who are afraid to voice that they need help. And I know personally how hard it is to not just voice it, but when you voice it to be told no. And so I went to human resources. And I said ‘I need help,’” the duchess said, adding, “because at my old job there was a union and they would protect me.”
“They said, ‘My heart goes out to you because I see how bad it is. But there’s nothing we can do to protect you because you’re not a paid employee.’”
“Those that shine the brightest lights and the biggest smiles” you have no idea what’s going on behind closed doors.
Heartbreaking and true. #MeghanMarkle pic.twitter.com/dwNjugbIup
— Kelly Dobeck (@KellyDWeather) March 8, 2021